Almost Time

As I sit here at the airport, with my trusty boyfriend by my side, I find myself having a hard time processing all of the emotions that are inside of me. Leaving my family is definitely the hardest thing that I have to deal with. It physically hurts when I think about not being able to see them every day. Never-mind not being able to wake up in my cozy, fluffy, messy bed. Or not being able to move the broken toilet cover every time I have to go to the bathroom. Or the annoying leaky bath-tub that has never allowed me to take a bath in peace. I think I will also miss work. The stability of knowing that it will be there the next day. Mostly, however, I will miss my family. My incredible mother, my annoying and fantastic sister, and all of the pets that live in my house. My friends, too. I will think of them often and I look so forward to wrapping my arms around them when I see them in September.

On the other hand, I am so excited that I cannot even put it into words. I don't even have a clear perception of how incredible this trip is going to be. Not to mention I have my best friend/boyfriend with me. Right now I am feeling a lot of fear, especially because I do not like to fly. When I push out the noise of my adrenal glands, however, I feel a sense of calm. I know, in my soul, that this is the right thing to do. I know that everything is going to be fine. I am going to meet so many unique people, see so many places, and do so many things. How many people can say that at 20 they traveled to London, France, Greece, and Spain? This is something that I am going to discuss for the rest of my life. As one of the best times of my life. It's simply leaving the stability of the known that makes me nervous. Everyone I talk to says that's normal. I just wonder when that will pass so I can simply just feel the excitement.

I cannot get my mother and sister off of my mind. I am so incredibly thankful to have such a supportive family. Seeing them leave today was so difficult. My mother is my rock and I have always known that she is there for me no matter what. Through thick and thin. Now I must accept that she is still there, just not in person.

My sister is just as incredible. She doesn't even have the perception of what a unique and strong human being she is. I already miss her more than I can say. I know that this will make our relationship stronger.

My flight leaves so soon. In an hour I will be saying good-bye to California and saying HELLO to London! I still cannot wrap my head around it. It will feel like a dream until a few days after we have landed. It's time though. It is time for me to spread my wings, as cheesy as that may sound. I have all of the support and love that I will ever need to succeed in life. Now I just have to make the jump in order to fully understand the potential my life holds for me.

Talk to you all from the U.K. tomorrow!

Also, for all of you who are wondering, I have not even stepped on the plane yet and my behind is already KILLING ME. For anyone who says that ANY seats in airports are comfortable, it is a huge lie. Next time I am bringing a pillow.